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The Journey – Week 9 (and beyond) Musings

24 Apr

Monday, 3/31 – 2/3 of the way through the journey I started, but it’s really not that big of a deal to me.  I’ve decided after just a few weeks, this has to be for life.  I look forward to finishing the original challenge of 12-weeks, but I promise, week 13 will just be the same old thing.  Reinforcing good, new habits, developing new ones, eating right and exercising and just living.  Nothing more than that.  After missing just about every workout last week due to work, I woke up tired, and not feeling as great as usual.  I was pretty good on free day yesterday.  I didn’t eat healthy, but I didn’t overeat, which I had been doing.  Trying to “get it in” just because it was free day, wasn’t too smart.  And as I progress, I learn and improve.  Just about to head to the gym today and get back to habit.  Admitting I’m not exactly looking forward to it, but I know I’m going to feel great about it when I’m done.  That’s enough encouragement for me.

Wednesday, 4/2 – I am officially under 300 lbs.  299.6 to be exact.  That’s 35 down, and 80 to go.

Thursday, 4/3 – Lesson to self.  I have made attempts in the past to get healthier.  What has ultimately derailed me (if I even got started) was vacation, or time missed due to injury, illness, whatever.  I’ve never recovered and got back to being as fat as I always was eventually.  Last week, I was on the road working my ass off and literally did not have the time to exercise.  (However, I did have control over my eating and ate healthy for the most part, or kept the portion size in check.)  It was back to the gym this week, and I tell ya, I did not want to go on Monday, but I made myself.  I didn’t have a great workout, but it was good, and I noted on my plan I needed to work harder.  Tuesday came, and that’s cardio day.  Again, I didn’t really want to go, but I made myself and felt better for it.  Yesterday, was lower body workout, and I didn’t mind going.  I had an excellent workout and felt really great & strong.  Then I have to work late tonight, so I went to the gym early, and wanted to go, and had a kick-ass cardio workout.  Sweating my ass off as I type this as I’ve just come home.  I’m back.  I’m invigorated.  And I feel I’ve beaten the bad habit back that seems to knock me on my ass everytime.  If you don’t want to go to the gym, and you can, GO!!!  It always feels better afterwards and it’s easier to get back on track when you’re just off the path to better health and better living.  The longer you wait, before you know it, you’re back in the boondocks and have lost your way.  I know.  I’ve done it many times.  I’m learning and getting better.

Thursday, 4/3 – Did anything ever good come from not working hard?  From just letting things happen?  Probably not much.  Unless you’re a trust-fund baby, or inherit a large sum of money, or the luckiest slot player alive, I’m really doubting it.  Corporate CEOs, world class athletes, entrepenuers, busted their asses to get where they are.  Almost all of em anyways.  Who in the hell would think a pill would help you get in shape?  I hear the ads all the time.  NO EXERCISE!!  NO EXERCISE!!  Makes no sense.  It’s bullshit.  Sure, you might be able to lose weight, but you’re also losing muscle.  If you look like a pear or a watermelon, you’re only going to look like a smaller pear or watermelon.  If you want to transform your physique and stay in shape, there’s no other way to do it than hard work and putting down the fork.  It’s that simple and it’s very hard to do for a lot of people.  But if I can do it, I swear to God, anyone can do it.

<Look at this huge gap!!  I’ve been bad about my blogging>

Thursday, 4/24 – Well.  I guess I haven’t wrote anything in 3 weeks.  During that time I worked a lot and took a week long spontaneous trip with my daughter, The Fish.  Jumped in the car for a week (Spring Break) and got on the open road and made it up as we went.  She’s 11, so we headed for fun & sun and wound up in S. Califonia and ultimately Disneyland.  Had a ball.  Didn’t exercise ONCE!  But we were outdoors a lot!  Didn’t eat healthy (well maybe once)!  But I did keep my portion size in check.  Got home after a week vacation from everything.  I really tried to fall “off the grid” with everything and just focus on my daughter and fun.  It was great.  And when I got back home, I hadn’t done much damage to myself.  Up maybe 1.5 lbs.  It was a tad rough getting back in the saddle.  But I did it.  And I felt good about it.  And now this week…..situation normal.  Back and rollin.  Eatin’ right.  Gettin’ to the gym daily.  Getting proper sleep.  And I feel pretty great.  Big things going on at work that I’m excited about and feel I have the energy to take on new challenges.

Saturday will be the COMPLETION of my 12-week Body for Life Challenge.  I’ll post all my stats to recap how successful (or unsuccessful) I was on Saturday after I know.  But you know what….I don’t really care how it turns out “on paper”.  I feel I’ve changed and feel much better.  And it’s not over.  Monday is going to be just another day of “gettin it done”. The Journey is not over until my life is done…..I have a lot left to do.  And there’s massive room for improvement in all parts of my life.

Stay tuned.

Me at CornDog Castle in Disneyland.  I'm still at fat bastard at heart.  Just not quite as fat this trip.  I'm gettin there, but couldn't pass up the best corn dogs on the planet.

Me at CornDog Castle in Disneyland. I’m still at fat bastard at heart. Just not quite as fat this trip. I’m gettin there, but couldn’t pass up the best corn dogs on the planet.

 

 

The Journey – Week 7 Musings

16 Mar

Sunday 3/16 – Had another work dinner last night.  It was great to see my colleagues fall out of their chairs when I ordered a garlic chicken and basil dish instead of a burger.  And when I was full I pushed it away. #winning

Wednesday 3/19 – I was checking myself out this morning in the mirror and I look a lot better.  It’s still far from pretty, but I’ve definately shrunk and I’m almost certain my shoulders have grown as there’s a slight V shape to me instead of the usual O.  I did take some pictures in my underwear when I started and I’ll do it again after it’s been a total of 3 months, but I don’t want to do it until then.  My belly is definately smaller.  My face I think is a bit smaller too.  I was really hating pictures of me with a face that was so much bigger than everyone else in the picture.

Wednesday 3/19 – #Compassion.  I guess this “journey” is about physically getting better as well as mentally getting better.  Something I noticed about myself that I don’t particularly like, but I have no idea how to change, is my lack of compassion.  I just don’t think I’m normal.  For instance, if I see a what looks to be a nice bum on a wheelchair on the streets and I have a couple bucks in my pocket, I’ll give it to him.  I donate a lot of cash to charities throughout the year and am happy to do it.  I volunteer a lot of time to organizations and charities every year.  Last year I did 138 hours and I’m very proud of that.  Now here’s the problem.  Yesterday in Seattle, there was a news helicopter crash and the pilot and photographer died.  Another man on the ground was seriously injured.  Everyone is talking about it and it’s a huge news story here.  When I heard it, I didn’t really think anything of it.  I certainly wasn’t happy about it.  But it didn’t overwhelm me with sadness either.  It didn’t affect me in any way at all.  I feel sorry for the families who lost loved ones and then I didn’t think about it again the rest of the day.  At night, I was reading a Scuba magazine and the news was on in the background.  They were talking about the crash.  Again, nothing.  Then I turn to a page in my magazine with horrific pictures of the slaughter of manta rays and sharks in 3rd world Asian countries and my heart about breaks in two.  Whenever I hear of a child taken, kidnapped, raped, hurt, or killed, I could sometimes just cry.  But people, strangers….completely ambivalent.  I don’t like that.  Even when my own family members die, and my little brother was tragically taken in a motorcycle accident a few years back, I don’t think I feel what others do.  It’s strange and it bothers me that I seem to lack the emotion that everyone else seems to have.

Thursday 3/20 – I have a beautiful pair of Bose headphones that I got for Christmas a couple years ago.  I love ’em.  However, I use them everyday at the gym, and they’ve begun to …. smell.  Smell bad.  Like dead body bad.  There’s this layer of foam that surrounds the ear cup that I guess has gotten sweat soaked and it is awful.  I can smell it, so the unfortunate people around me can smell it and they’re either 1) really grossed out, or 2) really impressed how hard I’m working.  It’s probably #1.  I need to figure out how to replace the cups, or get rid of the smell.  I don’t wanna buy another set because these babies are spendy and they still work great.  It would be cheaper to buy a clothespin for my nose and to pass them out to immediate neighbors.

Sunday, 3/23 – Well the weekend came and went.  Actually, I have a day left as it’s early morning on Sunday free day.  Took off Thursday after work for a long weekend up in Birch Bay (right on the Canadian border in very northern WA state) w/my wife, daughter, and her best friend (who’s like our niece, a daughter of one of my best friends in the world.)  I stayed on track.  Ate right and exercised on Thur & Fri.  Saturday rolled around and we decided to go to Canada.  We went up into Vancouver BC, through Stanley Park, stopped a couple hours at the great Vancover Aquarium (really great aquarium), and then this really cool water recreation center, which was more like a water park, in Richmond BC called Watermania (super cheap and super fun for families!)  All of us had a really great time and it took up the entire day.  As we were at Watermania, my wife elected to sit and watch.  I got in the wave pool w/the girls, went down the slides, we were jumping off the super high diving block which I would guess was about 22-24 feet (it looks higher when you’re up there looking down!)  I was much more active than I usually am and had fun playing like I was a kid!  My wife commented right before we were going that she was tired.  We had had a long day.  I honestly wasn’t tired at all.  We drove back to the USA and had dinner at a local burger & fries joint and it was awesome!  I blew it.  But that’s ok.  Today is a new day and all I can do is my best today.  (And it’s free day so it won’t be so hard.)  🙂  Now, I leave for Boise for the week in the morning.  That will be a challenge, but I will do everything I can to eat healthy and get my work out in.

See ya next week.

Here's The Fish and her friend Allie at the Vancouver Aquarium.  As far as aquarium's go, it's pretty awesome.  Not as good as Monterrey Bay down in CA, but way better than the Seattle Aquarium (the worst aquarium in the world.)

Here’s The Fish and her friend Allie at the Vancouver Aquarium. As far as aquarium’s go, it’s pretty awesome. Not as good as Monterrey Bay down in CA, but way better than the Seattle Aquarium (the worst aquarium in the world.)