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The Journey – September 2014 Update

11 Sep

Hey hey – It’s been awhile. Thinking about a few things lately and felt the need to journal a bit.

As of the 4th of July week, I was down to 283lbs. Still as big as a whale, but a far cry from the 334lbs. I started at. 51lbs. if truth be told.

Well vacation week was fantastic and I denied myself nothing. I ate, drank, and was merry all the week long with the best of intentions to get back on track the day I got home. That day came….and subsequently went.

Since then, I’m been off and on with working out and eating right. I always seem to start the week out right w/pretty good eating habits and a Monday workout….usually. But then something comes up, or I’m too tired, or going out to dinner sounds good, or friends want to meet for drinks and it’s been too easy for the bad habits to creep back in. I haven’t been getting all the workouts in. 1 or 2 a week isn’t cutting it. Sometimes I haven’t made it at all. Free day Sunday, where I allow my self every guilt-free indulgence, has pretty much turned into Free Weekend. And sometimes, due to summer and vacation days, has turned into free 3.5-day weekends, etc.

What I’m getting at is I’ve ballooned back up to 299lbs. since I fell out of good habits. Well, anywyas, today is 9/11 (ugh, I know….terrible memories), and this week I got myself recommitted to a healthier lifestyle again. I’m glad I didn’t fall too far from grace, but if I don’t recommit, I know I’ll be right back where I started beginning of February. How depressing that thought seems. So F*ck It. I ain’t doin’ that.

What I noticed really the most, wasn’t the waistline growing again. That really hasn’t been that big of a deal. It’s the lack of energy. That energy level was just skyrocketing and I’ve been back to feeling like my old lethargic self.

I am pleased to report that this week I’ve ate right all week. I’ve been to the gym everyday. Monday wasn’t pleasant. Tuesday wasn’t much better. Today. I feel great! And ready to go. It really doesn’t take that much to get back on the wagon if you haven’t let yourself fall too far. The nice thing about being fat, is it falls off fast, especially when you’re just beginning and losing all that water. This is like beginning again and I’m already back down to 293lbs. It’s all water, I know, but before, just eating reasonably healthy, watching portions, and a modest 30-min a day at the gym, it was simple to lose 1-2lbs. every single week. It doesn’t seem like much, it doesn’t readily show, but that’s 50-100lbs. in a year! And that’s my kind of program and loss level.

Anyways, I’m back. New goal is to be under 283lbs. (my lowest weight I can remember in at least a decade and probably more) by my cruise in mid October. I’m even optomistic I can post a bathing suit photo. It still won’t be pretty, but it will be pretty good progress.

Peace & love to you all,
xoxoxo

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The Journey – Week 9 (and beyond) Musings

24 Apr

Monday, 3/31 – 2/3 of the way through the journey I started, but it’s really not that big of a deal to me.  I’ve decided after just a few weeks, this has to be for life.  I look forward to finishing the original challenge of 12-weeks, but I promise, week 13 will just be the same old thing.  Reinforcing good, new habits, developing new ones, eating right and exercising and just living.  Nothing more than that.  After missing just about every workout last week due to work, I woke up tired, and not feeling as great as usual.  I was pretty good on free day yesterday.  I didn’t eat healthy, but I didn’t overeat, which I had been doing.  Trying to “get it in” just because it was free day, wasn’t too smart.  And as I progress, I learn and improve.  Just about to head to the gym today and get back to habit.  Admitting I’m not exactly looking forward to it, but I know I’m going to feel great about it when I’m done.  That’s enough encouragement for me.

Wednesday, 4/2 – I am officially under 300 lbs.  299.6 to be exact.  That’s 35 down, and 80 to go.

Thursday, 4/3 – Lesson to self.  I have made attempts in the past to get healthier.  What has ultimately derailed me (if I even got started) was vacation, or time missed due to injury, illness, whatever.  I’ve never recovered and got back to being as fat as I always was eventually.  Last week, I was on the road working my ass off and literally did not have the time to exercise.  (However, I did have control over my eating and ate healthy for the most part, or kept the portion size in check.)  It was back to the gym this week, and I tell ya, I did not want to go on Monday, but I made myself.  I didn’t have a great workout, but it was good, and I noted on my plan I needed to work harder.  Tuesday came, and that’s cardio day.  Again, I didn’t really want to go, but I made myself and felt better for it.  Yesterday, was lower body workout, and I didn’t mind going.  I had an excellent workout and felt really great & strong.  Then I have to work late tonight, so I went to the gym early, and wanted to go, and had a kick-ass cardio workout.  Sweating my ass off as I type this as I’ve just come home.  I’m back.  I’m invigorated.  And I feel I’ve beaten the bad habit back that seems to knock me on my ass everytime.  If you don’t want to go to the gym, and you can, GO!!!  It always feels better afterwards and it’s easier to get back on track when you’re just off the path to better health and better living.  The longer you wait, before you know it, you’re back in the boondocks and have lost your way.  I know.  I’ve done it many times.  I’m learning and getting better.

Thursday, 4/3 – Did anything ever good come from not working hard?  From just letting things happen?  Probably not much.  Unless you’re a trust-fund baby, or inherit a large sum of money, or the luckiest slot player alive, I’m really doubting it.  Corporate CEOs, world class athletes, entrepenuers, busted their asses to get where they are.  Almost all of em anyways.  Who in the hell would think a pill would help you get in shape?  I hear the ads all the time.  NO EXERCISE!!  NO EXERCISE!!  Makes no sense.  It’s bullshit.  Sure, you might be able to lose weight, but you’re also losing muscle.  If you look like a pear or a watermelon, you’re only going to look like a smaller pear or watermelon.  If you want to transform your physique and stay in shape, there’s no other way to do it than hard work and putting down the fork.  It’s that simple and it’s very hard to do for a lot of people.  But if I can do it, I swear to God, anyone can do it.

<Look at this huge gap!!  I’ve been bad about my blogging>

Thursday, 4/24 – Well.  I guess I haven’t wrote anything in 3 weeks.  During that time I worked a lot and took a week long spontaneous trip with my daughter, The Fish.  Jumped in the car for a week (Spring Break) and got on the open road and made it up as we went.  She’s 11, so we headed for fun & sun and wound up in S. Califonia and ultimately Disneyland.  Had a ball.  Didn’t exercise ONCE!  But we were outdoors a lot!  Didn’t eat healthy (well maybe once)!  But I did keep my portion size in check.  Got home after a week vacation from everything.  I really tried to fall “off the grid” with everything and just focus on my daughter and fun.  It was great.  And when I got back home, I hadn’t done much damage to myself.  Up maybe 1.5 lbs.  It was a tad rough getting back in the saddle.  But I did it.  And I felt good about it.  And now this week…..situation normal.  Back and rollin.  Eatin’ right.  Gettin’ to the gym daily.  Getting proper sleep.  And I feel pretty great.  Big things going on at work that I’m excited about and feel I have the energy to take on new challenges.

Saturday will be the COMPLETION of my 12-week Body for Life Challenge.  I’ll post all my stats to recap how successful (or unsuccessful) I was on Saturday after I know.  But you know what….I don’t really care how it turns out “on paper”.  I feel I’ve changed and feel much better.  And it’s not over.  Monday is going to be just another day of “gettin it done”. The Journey is not over until my life is done…..I have a lot left to do.  And there’s massive room for improvement in all parts of my life.

Stay tuned.

Me at CornDog Castle in Disneyland.  I'm still at fat bastard at heart.  Just not quite as fat this trip.  I'm gettin there, but couldn't pass up the best corn dogs on the planet.

Me at CornDog Castle in Disneyland. I’m still at fat bastard at heart. Just not quite as fat this trip. I’m gettin there, but couldn’t pass up the best corn dogs on the planet.