Sunday 3/16 – Had another work dinner last night. It was great to see my colleagues fall out of their chairs when I ordered a garlic chicken and basil dish instead of a burger. And when I was full I pushed it away. #winning
Wednesday 3/19 – I was checking myself out this morning in the mirror and I look a lot better. It’s still far from pretty, but I’ve definately shrunk and I’m almost certain my shoulders have grown as there’s a slight V shape to me instead of the usual O. I did take some pictures in my underwear when I started and I’ll do it again after it’s been a total of 3 months, but I don’t want to do it until then. My belly is definately smaller. My face I think is a bit smaller too. I was really hating pictures of me with a face that was so much bigger than everyone else in the picture.
Wednesday 3/19 – #Compassion. I guess this “journey” is about physically getting better as well as mentally getting better. Something I noticed about myself that I don’t particularly like, but I have no idea how to change, is my lack of compassion. I just don’t think I’m normal. For instance, if I see a what looks to be a nice bum on a wheelchair on the streets and I have a couple bucks in my pocket, I’ll give it to him. I donate a lot of cash to charities throughout the year and am happy to do it. I volunteer a lot of time to organizations and charities every year. Last year I did 138 hours and I’m very proud of that. Now here’s the problem. Yesterday in Seattle, there was a news helicopter crash and the pilot and photographer died. Another man on the ground was seriously injured. Everyone is talking about it and it’s a huge news story here. When I heard it, I didn’t really think anything of it. I certainly wasn’t happy about it. But it didn’t overwhelm me with sadness either. It didn’t affect me in any way at all. I feel sorry for the families who lost loved ones and then I didn’t think about it again the rest of the day. At night, I was reading a Scuba magazine and the news was on in the background. They were talking about the crash. Again, nothing. Then I turn to a page in my magazine with horrific pictures of the slaughter of manta rays and sharks in 3rd world Asian countries and my heart about breaks in two. Whenever I hear of a child taken, kidnapped, raped, hurt, or killed, I could sometimes just cry. But people, strangers….completely ambivalent. I don’t like that. Even when my own family members die, and my little brother was tragically taken in a motorcycle accident a few years back, I don’t think I feel what others do. It’s strange and it bothers me that I seem to lack the emotion that everyone else seems to have.
Thursday 3/20 – I have a beautiful pair of Bose headphones that I got for Christmas a couple years ago. I love ’em. However, I use them everyday at the gym, and they’ve begun to …. smell. Smell bad. Like dead body bad. There’s this layer of foam that surrounds the ear cup that I guess has gotten sweat soaked and it is awful. I can smell it, so the unfortunate people around me can smell it and they’re either 1) really grossed out, or 2) really impressed how hard I’m working. It’s probably #1. I need to figure out how to replace the cups, or get rid of the smell. I don’t wanna buy another set because these babies are spendy and they still work great. It would be cheaper to buy a clothespin for my nose and to pass them out to immediate neighbors.
Sunday, 3/23 – Well the weekend came and went. Actually, I have a day left as it’s early morning on Sunday free day. Took off Thursday after work for a long weekend up in Birch Bay (right on the Canadian border in very northern WA state) w/my wife, daughter, and her best friend (who’s like our niece, a daughter of one of my best friends in the world.) I stayed on track. Ate right and exercised on Thur & Fri. Saturday rolled around and we decided to go to Canada. We went up into Vancouver BC, through Stanley Park, stopped a couple hours at the great Vancover Aquarium (really great aquarium), and then this really cool water recreation center, which was more like a water park, in Richmond BC called Watermania (super cheap and super fun for families!) All of us had a really great time and it took up the entire day. As we were at Watermania, my wife elected to sit and watch. I got in the wave pool w/the girls, went down the slides, we were jumping off the super high diving block which I would guess was about 22-24 feet (it looks higher when you’re up there looking down!) I was much more active than I usually am and had fun playing like I was a kid! My wife commented right before we were going that she was tired. We had had a long day. I honestly wasn’t tired at all. We drove back to the USA and had dinner at a local burger & fries joint and it was awesome! I blew it. But that’s ok. Today is a new day and all I can do is my best today. (And it’s free day so it won’t be so hard.) 🙂 Now, I leave for Boise for the week in the morning. That will be a challenge, but I will do everything I can to eat healthy and get my work out in.
See ya next week.